“What if his blessings come through raindrops…what if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near…and what if trials of this life, the rain, the storms, the hardest nights, are Your mercies in disguise?”
I have a new song on my blog playlist (you are probably listening to it right now). It’s called “Blessings” by Laura Story. I first heard it a few weeks ago and it really spoke to me about Tate’s time in the NICU and how that affected my life, my faith. Without a doubt, that is the hardest thing I have ever been through in my life. While he was in the NICU, every day seemed to take forever, every hour drug by, nights were long, but sleep was short. It seemed like it would be forever before he could finally come home. Scripture, prayer – and family – is what got me through those weeks. Yet now, looking back, it’s just like a little “blip” in our lives. I hardly remember it. It’s almost like it never happened.
But, it did change me. The weird thing is – I’m
almost glad it happened. I wouldn’t ever choose to have it happen again - if I can be so picky! – and I wouldn’t want to put Tate, or any other baby through that, but it taught me so much. About patience, God’s love and prayer. I think back on all those prayers I uttered standing over Tate’s isolette, when I couldn’t hold him, couldn’t touch him, praying for his “heart to beat steady and strong, his lungs to breathe deep, his ears to hear, eyes to see, muscles to grow strong.” I’d start at the top of his head and pray my way down his little body, every time before I would leave him. I don’t think there is a time when I hold him now that I don’t utter a little “thank you” prayer to God for allowing me to be his mom and to have him here to hold. So yes, although I would have never thought so at the time, I would say Tate’s premature birth was a
blessing in my life. It has made me so much more mindful of how precious life is. And reminds me to “stand still” every once in a while and enjoy my blessings.
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise